Today is day three for me, and I am slogging and sifting through the emotional fall-out of Saturday night. I am badly shaken, and fell asleep to myself saying, “You can do this. Thank God the night didn’t end differently. You can do this…” — and, yes, I do truly believe that.
Last night, I was watching my beloved trashy TV on Bravo, when an ad for Bailey’s came on. Now, Bailey’s has never been a drink I enjoyed, nor ever thought much about. But seeing this ridiculous advertisement (seriously, Bailey’s? You have grown women wrapped in swaths of taupe-colored fabric, shimmying around to sell your coffee flavored liqueur?) made me think…now where are the fucking ads for other substances? I’d like to see that heroin store, or perhaps the cocaine billboard greeting me as I drive to work. Maybe some happy actors popping pills to the tune of Christmas carols. No?
Yeah, that doesn’t happen. But it certainly does with the devil on my shoulder: alcohol.
Before anyone gets their knickers in a knot – I’m being a tad facetious. What I’m getting at is the pervasive nature of alcohol; its glimmering advertisements, go-get-’em posters, and presence at an overwhelming majority of festivities and celebrations. It’s fucking everywhere, especially when you’re learning to leave it the hell behind.
Substance abuse and addiction is a rotten, difficult thing. But I have to think that the level at which we encourage & celebrate alcohol consumption makes alcoholism quite different from battling an illicit drug addiction. If you give up free-basing, I’m guessing your aunt and uncle wn’t ask you if you’d like to partake at Thanksgiving. Champagne? Wine? Beer? These are things I need to learn to be around, much as I’d like to never see them again. SIGH BITCH WHINE MOAN COMPLAIN STOMP MY GODDAMNED FEET.
As I told myself last night, laying in bed, alternating between waves of remorse and blissful moments of confidence – yes, I can do this. And YOU can do this. We can do this.
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